Sunday, October 10, 2010

maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year!

Soooo! Pretty interesting week. :/ I had my oral surgery on Tuesday and in my opinion it went TERRIBLE. I'm sure there's things that could have gone worse, but me being me.... HOLY SHIT!!
So, things that went wrong..
1.) The xray my dentist sent over of my wisdom teeth was "too dark" so they needed to take a whole new one, which is no big deal because I've had a million xrays, but still. A pain in the booty.
2.) They just start sticking all those patchy things on my chest and stomach without telling me what they're doing. I mean, yeah, I know these things because of my sister being a nurse, but hellooooo, I'm scared. Inform me what you're doing. :/
3.) My heartbeat? Still don't know what was up with it because nobody told me. But 3 different nurses/doctors listened to it and kept saying "you come here and listen to this" etc. :/ Scary much?
4.) Oxygen tubes!? WTF! I had oxygen shoved up my nose with no warning.
5.) THEY MISSED MY VEIN~*~* Okay.. I pass out over needles so of course I turned away, but when the surgeon told me he missed my vein, I got teary eyed. IV needles hurt so bad. :( So I had to be poked twice, & I now have two lovely yellowy bruises on my right arm.!
6.) They hit a nerve. :/ There was a nerve near my bottom left wisdom tooth and they happened to hit it. Making my jaw extremely sore, and part of my face/lower lip numb. Still numb today and it's been 5 days. Hmm. They think it might be permanent. :/
Quite the loaaaaaad of shit, eh?
Ah well, since Tuesday my diet has consisted of yogurt, applesauce, and Ensure chocolate nutritional drinks. Scrumptious, yes? mm.
But I think I'm done using the pain pills, so yaaaaaay!?

In other news. GO PHILLIES. ♥ They better go all the way to the world series, especially since the Twins are eliminated. Damn yankees. :(

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

old days. :(



Just found this on my photobucket account!
I really miss all the fun moments in cheerleading and all of the girls that were on this team! :(

Monday, September 27, 2010

happy (:

So, my weekend was pretty great. (: Rather eventful. Started training a new guy at work on Friday night, he's super cute. (: But not gonna boost that up to something more than it is, if anything happens with it all, thennnn I'll write it!

Anyway, Sunday.. <3 I probably stopped breathing for a span of 3 minutes at one point, but in a good way? Ha. Well, starting from the beginning, Alainna and I take off for Milwaukee at about 9:10 am & once we hit like Tomah, we ended up following this car for a LOOOONG time. Well, we switched off being leaders every now and then but the dude helped us weave through traffic, we did what he did. Anyway, we get up to the Milwaukee/Chicago split and we get in the Milwaukee lane and he goes for the Chicago lane. So Alainna is like "Hey Hillary! I dare you to wave!" Soo being a goofball, I do as we go our separate ways only to find him blowing kisses to us! It was pretty damn hysterical.

There's a boxelder bug staring at me. gonna go smash it. please hold.
Okay it's dead now.

Continuing, soooooooo we get to Miller Park and sit down and stuff and the most gorgeous creature is like 15 FEET AWAAAAAAAY. So we decide to stand up and scream "HELLOOOOOOO RYAN BRAUN!" he kinda pauses, looks over and *waaaaaaave* ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! So I turn to Alainna and scream "OH MY GOD HE'S SOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE" and he started laughing. So. Ryan Braun knows I exist. <3 Step 1 to the make him mine approach = complete. Then the guy sitting next to us happened to see the background on my phone, (which a friend made for me) which is a picture of Ryan blowing kisses & he started laughing at me and teasing me the whole game. We got up to go to the bathroom at one point and when I sat back down he goes "Ryan came over here when you were gone and was like 'where's those girls, i can't play without them!'" haaaaaaa. he was a joker.

IN GAME PLAAAAAY! Ryan Braun hit a home run his FIRST & SECOND AT BATS! Two home runs. I spazzed. Which also means he got his 100th rbi of the season! It was great. Prince Fielder & Lorenzo Cain also hit home runs, and Lorenzos was his first career home run. <3 what a kid. Also was able to see Trevor Hoffman & Craig Counsell so my life was kind of great.

Monday, September 20, 2010

liiife.

Mmm. So if I put this off any longer, Jamie aka number 13 might chop my dick off so. Blog. About random stuffs. (:

First, Stella. Stella is my very very beautiful 6 month old niece.

This little girl is going through quite a scare right now. :/ When they tested her, when she was newly born, her white blood cell count was dangerously low. When tested again at a later check up, it was lower & we were informed that if she got a cold, she had a high risk of dying. She went off to Mayo health center today and got some blood work done, along with my sister, and we should know what's wrong by Friday. :( So sad to see my wittle Stella go through. ;/

Second, me! I have surgery to get my wisdom teeth cut from underneath my gums & to fix a crack in my jaw on the 5th of October. I'm a wimp & scared to death. Applesauce is going to be my best friend for weeks. I keep having dreams.. well. nightmares rather, that I wake up during the surgery and can feel absolutely everything and they won't stop the procedure or knock me out again and act like they don't even hear me scream. :(
Positive note, I'm going to the Brewers game on Sunday. (: Row two in left field. ♥ I am going to freaking touch Ryan Braun. Or at least say hello. ;D twelve times.

Third, i don't know.! i love you jamie. (:

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Bucket list. (:

Here's the start to my bucket list, in no particular order, and nowhere close to complete!
1. Be Happy. Not the fake happy for the moment thing. But genuinely happy and at peace with myself.

2. Visit every Major League Baseball stadium. Miller Park & Target Field = complete. Anyone down for some 2011 road trips? ;D

3. Lay under the stars with someone I love. Perfect movie scene. What girl doesn't want to do this? :P

4. Swim with dolphins. I'm completely obsessed with marine/aquatic life. & dolphins are amazing creatures, quite possibly my favorite. & I've never even seen one in person. :(

5. Visit Nino in Germany! Absolute best friend any one could ask for. He's visited me here, so I'd love to return the favor as soon as I work up the courage to fly!

6. Get married. I just don't intend on spending my life alone. (:

7. Have children. I don't care if it's by adoption or my own. I just adore children, and no child should go unloved!

8. Meet. Ryan. Braun. My favorite goal on the list, and hopefully will be fulfilled. He's so gorgeous! A hug would sure seal this deal. ;D

9. Write & publish a book/poem. I love to write, but keep all of my work hidden. I'm scared of the judgments people will make, but hopefully some day will be able to over come it. Only time will tell. (:

10. Learn to play guitar well. I can play simple melodies but am nowhere near the point I want to be! Someone teach me! :(

11. Set foot in each continent. Kind of a crazy goal. But I hope it happens? (:

12. Make a positive difference. A very vague goal, eh? I don't care what kind of difference it is. Whether it's positively towards someone's life, or to the world, just knowing that I can make a change is well worth it. (:

13. See a shooting star. I love the night sky, and could just lay back and stare at it for hours upon end, and I'm very guilty of doing that. But have never in my life seen a shooting star. :(

14. Read all of Jodi Piccoult's books. Jodi is my ultimate favorite author. I've read 3 of her many books and hopefully will be purchasing the others soon!

15. Believe in self. I think this is going to be the hardest goal for myself to accomplish. I've always been put down and told that I wasn't good enough & wouldn't amount to much. Eventually, that sinks in, and unfortunately, it's what I believe now. However, I hope to reverse it!

16. Walk through a rain forest. I love love love the sound of rain, outdoors, and animals. Perfection? I think so.

17. Fly somewhere. For some reason, I am terrified of air travel. So, someone get me on a plane and hold on to meeeee please?!

18. Learn to completely forgive. This has two meanings. I am a very forgiving person when it comes to people saying they're "sorry." But, the thought of what they always did always lingers in my mind, and if I'm angry I'll take back forgiving them. I also need to learn to forgive myself for mistakes made.

19. Heal my past. Many things in my past have left me with emotional scars and I dwell on them far too often. Of course, not everything can be forgotten, but it can be accepted.

20. Trace my ancestry. I honestly have no idea what to label myself as with all this stuff! I'd love to learn where my family is from and obstacles my ancestors went through to get us where we are today!

21. Get a tattoo. I want to get a tattoo, but two factors are stopping me. 1. I'm a chicken. 2. I want it to be something meaningful, not just pretty.

22. See Lee Dewyze. Absolutely fell in love with this man on American Idol season 9! He's adorable. (:

23. House a foreign exchange student. Obviously I can't make this happen any time soon! Gonna need my own household and family before I can think about this happening. (:

24. Write a song. Complete with words & instrumentals!

25. Visit an ocean! I'm so obsessed with the freakin ocean and I've never even seen it! :(


AH WELL THE END FOR NOW. (: WILL ADD MORE WHEN MY LIST GROWS!

Monday, August 30, 2010

Shuuuuuuucks.

Ohhhhhh, don't you just love going to sleep on a bad note with someone, then waking up knowing it's going to be a shitty day the second you open your eyes? I've got to say, it's among my top 10 favorite feelings. Anyway, this just needs to be released from my system, thus. I am creating a blog.

Okayyyyyy, so on top of that whole ordeal, there's more friggen problems revolving around family & other humans. Issue 1. My car money. I've been looking for a new car since around June or so, and my mother PROMISED me $2,000 for a down payment. Little did I know, I should have taken the money right away and used it on the first car I liked. Because now it's gone because of my 27 year old sister who doesn't know a thing about budgeting her money or responsibility. See, my mom cosigned her student loans for her back in her college days and apparently she hasn't paid a single fucking penny on them since SEPTEMBER 2009.
So of course now they have to go after my mom. My mom & "stepfather" are currently trying to get a house loan, and have been disapproved due to the fact my sister has COMPLETELY OBLITERATED my mom's credit. So no house loan for them, so what's their alternative... to use the $2,000 I was PROMISED to put towards the house, of course, I'm not mad at my mom for this because I'd do the same in her situation, and she promised to get the money back somehow, but honestly, my sister.. grow up. She can't pay off her student loans, but she can buy a house where the monthly payment is above $1,500.. buy a Yukon Denali when she could have very easily bought a van, or other vehicle for half the price, buy a DVD PLAYER for her Denali? WHAAAAAAAAT!? Come on now.
Also, she owes me over 300 in babysitting and nanny fees! Guess I can say goodbye to the thought of ever getting that money, huh? The big bitch of this situation is I found a car that I completely adore & is very reasonably priced & I can't get it without that money. :( & isn't it funny now that my sister just asked my mom for $2,000. Then asked my dad over FACEBOOK!? lol. Smooth. & then she has the nerve to ask me to babysit her kids for free the other morning. I love the kids and they're well worth seeing, but hunny, learn to respect the people that have helped you so much in life. /End Issue 1.

Issue 2. Ha. Health Insurance. I need to have my wisdom teeth removed ASAP, or so I've been told by my dentist. Seeing as they are still under my gums, they need to be cut out and I'd be sent to oral surgery & knocked out. So, this would be covered by my health insurance. Knowing that health insurance is forever changing, I had my dad call to see if this would still be covered. It is covered in full, except the damn deductible was reset.
What this means is that I can get my wisdom teeth taken out, and anything else after that after I pay a grand total of $1,000. Logically thinking, since it's MY DAD'S insurance which I am covered under, I was like "oh hey, I'll pay half & so will he." He hangs up the phone & says "well, kid, you're on your own." Excuse me? You expect me to pay $1,000 for something that's going to help you out as well? No. After I pay that 1k, he can go to the doctor all he wants and get shit done for NO COST WHATSOEVER. Doesn't seem very fair to me.
Then he says, "maybe your mom can help you with that." HA. You expect my mother to pay for health insurance you're covered under. No, that will never happen. & the topper on the situation is my dad has paid multiple bills for my older sister Hannah, and just put over $3,000 of medical expenses on his credit card for Heather. What have I gotten? Absolutely nothing. Kind of weird seeing as I am the absolute youngest & his only "true" daughter by blood test.

Anyway. That's my life at the moment :/

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

30 Most Attractive MLB Players. (:


30. Ted Lilly - Las Angeles Dodgers!
Don't worry, Ted. I feel the pain of you being in a Cubs uniform as well. At least those days are over! :D



29. Carlos Gomez - Milwaukee Brewers!
Warning: this list is going to be very biased. But come onnnn, he's an adorable little thing!



28. Andy Pettite - New York Yankees!
He's just got a pretty face!



27. Craig Counsell - Milwaukee Brewers!
Don't even comment on his age. Boy has got it going on. (: Plus, one of my favorite players to watch!



26. Yovani Gallardo - Milwaukee Brewers!
Don't know what it is about this one, but lately he's been super appealing to me. Helps that he's becoming an amazing pitcher. Adds to the charm!



25. Gabe Kapler - Tampa Bay Rays!
Really wish this guy was still in a Brewers uniform. Most amazing muscles, hands down.



24. Jeff Francoeur - New York Mets!
His smile melts me.



23. Chris Capuano - Milwaukee Brewers!
So glad he made a comeback. (: Chris was my favorite pitcher in 2007 & through his injuries, he's managed to stay pretty. Great work bro.



22. Felipe Lopez - St. Louis Cardinals!
One of the more attractive Latino players in the league. (: Also used to be a Brewer and did amazing stuff for us. Props. ;D (+ made 2 errors against us in the past series to help us get the win!)



21. Alex Rodriguez - New York Yankees!
Dear Alex, you probably have the most dreamy eyes in the entire major leagues & your skin looks amazingly smooth. Sincerely, Hillary.



20. Kyle Kendrick - Philadelphia Phillies!
So, that uniform really makes your ranking go up. ;D But you've got the cutest wittle faceee. !



19. Justin Morneau - Minnesota Twins!
Om nom nom. 'nuff said. Also, loving the uniform. ;)



18. Stephen Drew - Arizona Diamondbacks!
Do you have any idea how cute you are in person? Thank the lord that I do.



17. Colby Rasmus - St. Louis Cardinals!
Discovered how adorable you were the other day. & you're going to be one dangerous hitter in the next couple years. yikes.



16. J.J. Hardy - Minnesota Twins!
Honestly, this guy is the reason I started watching baseball. Saw him at my first game and fell in love with the looks. & nowwww, I love the entire sport to pieces. In years following, discovered he's got noooothing on my top 15. ;D So big thanks to Mr. James Jerry for making me fall in love with baseball!



15. George Kottaras - Milwaukee Brewers!
Second best looking guy on the team. Keep your face shaved & you're absolutely gorgeous. Although, a little bit of scruffyness is appealing too. ;) Nice guy forreals though!



14. Michael Saunders - Seattle Mariners!
Not quite sure what it is about you, but you're just kind of "shyly" adorable.



13. Jamie!?!?! - Kreepers!
Wait, wait, how'd this get in hereee!? She be kute kreeper though, eh?



12. Randy Wells -
Chicago Scrubs!
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I'm really sorry that you have to wear that uniform.. but on the positive side, you're attractive. ;)



11. Kevin Slowey - Minnesota Twins!
Absolutely adore his eyes. Plus, he's a darn solid pitcher. (: Have had a crush on him since 2007!




10. Joe Mauer - Minnesota Twins!
Dark hair, tan skin, CHECK OUT THE LIPS ON THIS ONE. Luscious. Amazing player, too. Deserves a lot more credit!




9. Jacoby Ellsbury - Boston Red Sox!
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Ugh. The rest of my list is so hard! Jacoby has dark hair, dark eyes. ♥ & that smile.. What a pretty man!




8. Tyler Colvin - Chicago Scrubs!
I want you. But, we really need to get you into a better uniform. :(




7. Elvis Andrus - Texas Rangers!
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Seriously beautiful skin tone. Can't wait to see this guy develop his skills in the upcoming years!



6. David Wright - New York Mets!
Honestly, that picture is smoking hot. This guys smile + attitude = ♥ & (:





5. Rich Harden - Texas Rangers!
You are one of the best things to ever happen to a Cubs uniform. You pulled that shiz off. But, glad you're no longer with them, sad because you're not in the NL and I rarely get to see you televised. D:



4. Adam Wainwright - St. Louis Cardinals!
Yum. Just yum.



3. Ryan Sweeney -
Oakland Athletics!
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He has the cute, young faceee look going on. Sparkly whiteee smile too. ;D I'd touch. Just sayin.




2. Grady Sizemore - Cleveland Indians!
Uhhh, really wish you weren't on the DL. Either way, Grady is gorgeous. & his muscles were sculpted by the Gods. For real. end of story.. (:



AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAND!



1. RYAN BRAUN ♥ - Milwaukee Brewers!
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By far the most gorgeous man to ever walk the planet, not just the majors!. And this picture, yeah, hot. Baseball player, owns restaurants, & is involved with a clothing line, success is hot. & usually, cocky guys are a huge turn off, but Ryan really pulls it off.


would love to hear input from anyone else~!


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